As I sit down to write to you tonight, I feel very blessed and grateful in my heart. This last week I have had to nurse myself as if I had the flu. My mental and emotional health was tested- pulled and stretched- beyond belief. And most of the time when I feel myself go into that place that just seems too dark to handle, I find a way to distract myself and get by. I usually don’t think twice about having to take “care” of myself. But this week, I most certainly did.
Have I mentioned I’m not in the same season of life that I’m accustomed to?! I’m not.
Right now I’m in a season of solitude. I’m in a season of time. I’m in a season of patience. And I’m in a season of “roll with the punches.” To counter that, I’m also in a season of “you call the shots.” And most importantly to note, I’m in a season of “you’ve got way too much time on your hands, Britt.” It is this combination that allows my mind to just think and think and think. And that, my friends, can get ugly! 🙂
Today I finished the second week of 21 Day Fix Extreme. I planned it so that the full program would be completed as I get to Nashville, TN next week for Beachbody Coach Summit. It is our annual event where tens of thousands of like minded fitness friends get together and grow. I seriously can’t wait! The ladies that I will be surrounded by next week are some of the most amazing women I’ve ever met. Moms, sisters, daughters, friends. Positive, beautiful souls. Have I mentioned I can’t wait?! 🙂
21 Day Fix Extreme (and 21 Day Fix) is a really straight forward program where you do a different workout each day of the week, rinse, and repeat for 21 days. The week always ends with Yoga Fix to loosen the body up and clear the mind for the next week. It is my favorite day!!!
A week ago, though, I spent much of the workout with tears in my eyes and a heavy heart. Today, I was all smiles. There was a moment this week where I was really ready to give up on things. And when I say things I mean everything. I wanted to give up on opening my blinds and making my bed. I wanted to give up on working out. I wanted to give up on being a functioning member of society. Things, you know?!
But I’ve been blessed with a gift here on this page. And my gift is to share my story. Every ugly, beautiful, blessed, messy part of it. And when I open up and share my story, I end up finding out that there are people out there dying to share theirs with someone, too. I’m so fortunate that I get to be their virtual ear and shoulder. I believe that my stories spark light in other peoples’ lives where there once was darkness. Not because of my story. Not exactly. My story is mine. But my story ignites others’ stories that make them realize we aren’t all so crazy after all. (WAIT! You feel like that, too?!?!) And what a wonderful world it becomes when we can all share our stories. Our successes and our failures. Our highs and our lows. Our best days and our worst. All of it matters.
So, one week left to go with 21 Day Fix Extreme, with the final workout (Leg Day) being done LIVE with AUTUMN CALABRESE herself! 🙂 I can’t wait. (Have I mentioned that?!) And the start of my final week ALSO marks 30 days until I pack up my car and move to California to start my life with Charles by my side. I SERIOUSLY can’t wait. I am EXTREME-ly close!!!